Dari anakmu yang hina :'(

After all these years, I am still not independent - financially.

I've put my parents through enough burdens already, and I do not wish to do that again. But it saddens me, really, when I still pose as one up till now. Received an SMS from my father this morning, it was so heartrending I almost cried.

"Salam.i've credited rm* for u to take taxi."

Struck and ashamed, little did I know that the innocent phone conversation with my mother, on walking for more than a mile to the lab, will eventually lead to this.

You don't have to, Abah. Really :(

I have my allowance, and more importantly, I have a husband who is more than willing to buy me anything within his means.
Not to say that I don't need you, no, but what I meant is please splurge on your hobbies or holidays, rather than paying my bills. Let your useless up-to-no-good daughter feel the flavors of life called pain and hardships in order to keep her feet on the ground.

How can I ever repay you? Thousands of years, millions of dollars will never suffice. I will forever be indebted. Hanya Allah yang dapat membalas jasamu Mama, Abah.
I hope I can be as selfless as both of you someday. I seldom express this, but please do know that I love you endlessly. And from the bottom of my heart, I wish you both undying happiness, dunia dan akhirat. May Allah bless you. Amin.

With Abah, Mama & lil brother Irfan

Diary

Yes, a diary. This is what a blog supposed to be right? I think I'm gonna stick with this mode for umm, now.

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Started my morning with a bit of enthusiasm after a good 9-hour sleep. But damn that technical glitch in Sijangkang, I needed to walk for more than a mile with a 4kg backpack. Reached CICT then headed straight to cafe to wolf down a full-plate of nasi goreng.

So when I finally got the chance to check my result at the postgrad office, I was literally giddy. Senarai tampal had been up since last week, not official yet though. And I was kinda surprised how things eventually turned up - couldn't help but to feel both pleasantly surprised, and disappointed. Somehow I think I can do better, but what the heck, I've been saying this line every single time after getting my results!
Anyway anyhow, Alhamdulillah..

And while scanning for my IC No on the list, suddenly my favourite lecturer Professor Naomie, passed by and tegur "Haa macam mana result? Bagus?" And me being awkward, replied "Err..taktau, lupa course code". Hahahaha..
Seriously I don't know how some of you can get along very well with your lecturers/supervisors - I for one, felt seriously intimidated by their mere presence. Kenapa ha? Benciiiiiiiii gileeee why am I such a socially awkward freak! :/

After that embarrassing moment I headed back to the lab while repeating the mantra "I need to improve my people skills..I need to improve my communication skills.." LOL.
The pills I took earlier in the morning had finally taken their toll on me. Felt dizzy but I toughen it up, while fumbling for some clues online on how to use SVM multiclass, and how to share folders between host and guest virtual machine. I deeply regret giving up learning Linux while having the chance and some gurus few years ago. Now eat that!

1.30pm. Time for lunch, then balik bilik tido. So that's how I spent my day. Or half day. Either way, it was bland :o

the one thing to rule all

thought this is worth sharing - taken from an old pamphlet stuck on the softboard - left by the previous occupant.

tanda hati rosak:

-hati menderita dengan dunia seperti:

• bersedih kerana miskin
  
• susah hati orang kaya
  
• menderita lihat orang senang

well, the first point tu i honestly think any normal people akan terasa at least a bit sedih kot? though money is not everything, *almost* everything revolves around money nowadays, whether we like it or not :(

ape2 pun, rezeki semua di tangan Allah, sedihla byk mana pun, mmg dh tertulis rezeki kita byk tu..so, redha is the best way (tp kalau duk tido sambil tunggu duit jatuh dari langit tu bodo namanya haha)

yes well said. message me for my account number :P

tapi, 2 point terakhir tu mcm sgt keji kan? busuk hati gile. nauzubillah

cliche much?

in blogosphere, i think everyone has at least gone through this once - writer's block, that is.

i seriously dont know what to write in here. and if some of you might notice, several posts had been removed - simply because they're rubbish, or so i thought.

or either i think i disclosed too much info they might annoy someone. or whatever.

(forgive my indecisiveness heh :p)

apart from that, i think my writing skill is degrading. reason being, i havent read any substantial books for ages!

oh how i wish i can enjoy reading, playing games, watching animes, and even sleeping (!!) as much as before. well, those days are past.

sheesh...i fret too much these days. blame it on the road less traveled?